Treeowl, 37

Im like a dormant seed, I'm scared to germinate into anything, because in my naive belief that would be accepting the cycle of life, including its end. I'm also afraid of choosing the wrong thing as if there's no turning back. From Native fruit smoothies, upcycling vintage clothing to feminist work in Cambodia, ideas for me have come and gone. I have a degree in film & one class short of a minor in photography. Dont use either. This past year I've been turned on to the author Daniel Quinn, and it has changed my life and perspectives in such a beneficial way. His works, "Ishmael" "The Story of B" "My Ishmael" and recently "Beyond Civilization" have provided me with many missing puzzle pieces. I could talk for a very long while about them & would love to meet people with interests in their subject matter. Recently I've started reading "The Spell of the Sensuous" by David Abram, its quite good as well. "The Story of B" has turned me onto animism, and this book is introducing that world to me. Other interest: Foreign Film: Akira Kurosawa, Sally Potter, Lars Von Trier* (only 2 of his films but they are good, dancer in the dark & nymphomaniac), The Lunchbox, Getting Home, Khadak, The Separation, Etc.
Books not already mentioned:
Once on a Time, Whinny the Pooh, Alice in Wonderland, The Good Body, A Room of My Own. Biographies: Jimi Hendrix,
Bob Marley, Wangari Maathai, Aung Sang Suu kyi, Tecumseh. I dont read as much as this list suggests, but I've had a lot of interests that I sometimes read about. I enjoy Nature, I wish I could be apart of it more, or at least go camping or kayaking or something more often. Native plants, animals, I've been hooting with the bard and great horned owls around me. I think they might be my spirit animal... or maybe pot bellied pigs are. I feel like a fish out of water, I'm very friendly but dont identify personally with many people in my daily life. Would like to meet interesting people.